Part7: Other side of the coin

Sarayu greeted opposite person. Since she was standing opposite to him I could not get glimpse at first but when I realised who it was I went speechless! It was ADARSH. I could not believe this, they were speaking as if they know each other from long time.

They spoke something seriously for a while, they exchanged some photos through phone as far as I understood. I wondered what was going on there. For a moment, I felt Adarsh wanted to solve the issue and might be speaking with her, but it is so unlikely to believe that they don't know each other from what I see.

My guts didn't support me to stay for long, I went back home and  plopped on bed. What's happening in my life? everything is going un expected. If he really want to meet Sarayu why didn't Adarsh tell me when we first met.

I trust Sarayu completely and  no doubt in it, but I really wanted to know why she is doing all strange things. I wanted to get things clear no matter what. 

Sarayu came home rather happily. I didn't know how to respond. For God's sake, can you please explain what's happening in my life Sarayu? and why did you meet Adarsh? how do you know him?

Sarayu stared at me and said "so, you spyed on me Ashwin?"

Umm, I can not let more misunderstandings peep in, so I explained everything, she kind of looked convinced.

Sarayu leave everything and tell me , I want to know every goddamn thing and this heck of suffering should end today.

Sarayu let out a deep sigh.I will tell you everything Ashwin, but first I am sorry for making you go through hell, I literally went through same hell. I made you cry and I cried more for making you so. I was in a state of quandry. I was unable to decide between good and bad. I completely needed to know truth.

It was around few days before I recieved a message from unknown person in whatsapp. It read Ahswin is an idiot, he plays with people and their life, don't trust him. I was angry seeing that message, I didn't wanted to see any word bad on you, I simply blocked the number. Next day, I recieved a parcel with a letter in it. 

I opened the letter and it said

If you don't do as I instructed, your dearest husband Ashwin will be shot! You will see the consequences if you ignore. 

You know what Ashwin? the font was written in Bold red and there was no address on the post. I was dumbstruck seeing the post. I suddenly felt like I was under survilliance of someone. 

The person sent instructions to me 2 days once, I strictly followed them in fear of losing you. The letter always said not to be in good terms with you and I should not speak with you. At one point of time I even thought of divorcing you instead of making you go through this hell.

I thought and thought and thought, but could not get a clue on who it was. I even tried tracking the blocked number expecting some clue. I approached my friend who works in telephone department and it was taken with wrong address in illegal means. To continue digging more details, I was worried he would find out and cause you harm.

The person used to send me letters abusing you in meanest ways. I was wondering what harm you did that made him/her do such extreme things. They are not troubling you physically and they are not demanding me money, So, I didn't understand the whole concept of what they would yield out of it.

After checking for the details of the number, I waited if they would warn me. I didn't get anything. I assumed they are not aware of my activites. I went ahead with further more digging. My friend verified previous records and sent me the persons who used the sim earlier to this person. 

I glanced through first 2 records and could not find anything. The 3rd record was known person. I remember seeing him. I pressured my brain and it suddenly hit me. It was Adarsh. I had met Adarsh in my friend's wedding. I was shocked to see Adarsh pic there. 

Was he doing everything? what does he want? why is he doing this?

I immediately replied to my friend and asked to get details of Adarsh if she can. Since she works in telephone department. She has many other friends who works for other networks.

There was a deal between us, what ever emails I send her should be read and deleted immediately and same is the case for me. She said she needs 2 days time to get Adarsh number.

That 2 days were night mare for me. I used to get scared that the person will find out and will harm you. The very next day he wrote, I will update you next major step in 24  hours, if you do any crazy stuff in between you know what would happen.

It was like my nerves will split up any moment with fear and tesnsion. I felt like hugging you and crying loudly. 

Harika Bojanala:)

Go Green...Save Trees

Part6: unforeseen

After a deep analysis and knowing  I can't do anything about it...I forced my brain not to think about it. It flew to a different direction, I made root cause analysis for sarayu's whats called as an intelligent response. I thought sarayu might have been happy and sent a smiley  and my brain said think with common sense Ashwin, if she is happy why is she not talking to you.

Later that night my mobile beeped, it was a whatsapp message from Adarsh.

Any problem mate? you sounded troubled? would be glad to help you, if I can!

I smiled reading the message, he is saviour, when I last met Adarsh he saved my life, like I am alive just because of him. I was walking on a busy street with headset tucked in my ears and higher volume. I was so deeply involved in the music I didn't notice a car which was almost close to hit me, that's when Adarsh came running and dragged me aside. What I did not understand was he immediately started his bike and started following it at high speed, I shouted Adarsh, wait I am comming, he was long gone before I could say anything more. Later I tried reaching him through phone n number of times and I went to his room only to find it closed. He stayed alone and I have no contact with any one else who knows him. All my attempts to have any kind of contact with him were invain.

Now here he is, suddenly appeared in my life like a magic. I started feeling positive. I replied him, we will meet tomorrow at garden restaurant 10 A.M. He replied Ok.

Since it was sunday, there was little crowd in the restaurant. It was breezy pleasant morning. I was looking at the clouds and was thinking deeply, Don't gaze too much man, u will get even the clouds down! I turned around to see smiling Adarsh.

We ordered breakfast and started discussing. I explained him each and every bit of what had happened. He listened to everything patiently. Later he told me something which made me realise Sarayu's love towards me more.

Something might be bothering her man, may be a big thing which you hided ftrom her and which she found out or she must be under pressure about something, she might be struggling whether to tell you or not. Inspite of all these, she still loves you, that's how she didn't leave you, that's how she cooks your favourite stuff, that's how she is trying not to make your personal matters public.

After listening to what Adarsh said, I felt happy, atleast my so called happily ever after life is not going to end. Sarayu loves me. The thought itself made me feel better.

Comming to the secrets, I dont have one, I have shared everything with her. I even told her about my past affair and how we broke up, it was not even love, it was just two unmatured male and female who thought it was love and were in relationship for few months.

I finally asked Adarsh to advice me . He said time heals everythig and have faith in god. That was the least disppaointing reply I expected from him.

Umm I sighed and we parted ways. When we came out Adarsh started to home in his bike and I kick started my bike in opposite direction towards my home. That's when I noticed Sarayu in her vespa she wears an half helmet inspite of my insistence that it is not safe. She covered her face with the shawl. I was wondering where she is heading to at this hour.

I reluctantly followed her. I know it is worst manner but I didnt have any other choice. She was heading in the staraight road and was riding faster than her usual speed. She finally took a right turn and stopped at a restaurant. She parked her vehicle and went inside.

She went and sat in a table which said reserved.

I was in utter shock at the sight of what was happening there.


Yours
Harika.
Go Green...Save Trees

Part5: Strange things at odd times

Sarayu got up with a thud and pushed me aside. I was so weak to even protest, I let go of her. I slept ignoring every freaking thing as if it never happened. My eyes were so heavy, it looked like I took responsibilities of each and every person in the world and I alone worked on their behalf. They refused to listen to me, for a while I ignored whole world and slept. 

I slept for what felt like an eternity, I woke up after a relaxed sleep and moved to kitchen to see if there was food left over for me. Sarayu prepared my favourite ragi balls and daal. Looks like even she didn't touch the food. I am scared now, she is turning out to be wierder day by day,  its time to take her to a doctor.

I took food in a plate and requested her to eat. Better mind your own freaking bussiness Mr.Ashwin was her curt reply. I sighed, I didn't want to spoil my health, I should be atleast strong enough to take care of her. I calmly sat at the couch and started eating.

Sarayu threw back, I-can't-believe-you-are-ignoring-me-and-eating look at me. I gave a weak smile. Surprisingly she waved her hand in the air saying whatever, she moved in to kitchen and got her food, she sat on the mini stool and started eating. I patted myself in mind and it felt like a perfect strategy to make her eat and gain health again.

We sat seperately and ate , with millions of thoughts running in each of us, the TV we were watching just felt like the background for those thoughts.

It was fun watching TV earlier. we have set it up so well, we used to play good old HD quality movies in our 42 inch sony TV which felt like a mini theater. I used to prepare pop corn and masala papad. Sarayu used to cook whichever I liked. Every Saturday night used to be heaven. We cuddle each other and enjoy the show. Half of the times Sarayu dozes off to sleep in the middle, I make her sleep comfortable, cover her with a blanket and reduce volume so that she does not get disturbed, She holds my hand in between and sleeps like a kid.

We are together even now but like 2 startngers in same room under same roof. Nothing else is common. If she really has a problem, can't she tell me? Am I that hard hearted man who does not listen? I drew towards negativity. It is at this time I behave like an idiot. Before I scold her again. I moved out slamming the door hard.

After going out I messaged her, Sarayu...I really love you. Please tell me if I did something wrong, I will definitely correct it, I swear. 

I know she ignores this message like 1000s of my useless messgaes from past few days. I roamed, roamed and roamed aimlessly. It started raining, I didn't mind getting drenched, so I started walking towards nowhere, Thats when suddenly put a hand on my shoulder, little scared I turned back only to see my old friend.

Hey Ashwin, Good to see you man! how are you! where were you all these days, he didn't change even a bit, he is same old Aadarsh who speaks non stop. I said ohh ohh Adarsh give your questions a break, u have not changed a bit. He laughed and we discussed how he suddenly appeared here. 

Adarsh was not actually my friend, we met rather strange. I rarely go to temples. But that day Rajan pulled me inside since it was his birthday and he is big devotee. Feeling bored inside, I looked at Adarsh who was lighting a diva with pure devotion. I could see it in his eyes. I rarely saw guys doing this stuff. So I even smiled at him. He smiled back. I could not sustain my eagerness. I somehow wanted to know what lead him to divinity. He smiled and said if time comes even you will be routed to GOD.

I did not understand it at that moment. Even now I don't understand it. I see Rajan doing prayers but I never noticed that spark in anyone else but Adarsh.

Me and Adarsh met in strangest kind of ways for few more days. He was in touch for few days and disappeared suddenly. Now he comes again. We spoke for longest time. 

It was almost in the mid night I reached home. We have 2 keys. I opened the door with my key and went inside. I opened my phone to save Adarsh number. I had asked him to dial in. Thats when I noticed. Sarayu had replied to my message. I felt like an achiever, my heart beat was faster than usual, if there was any meter to measure it would have blasted at the moment, I was scared to see the message. Finally I gained all strength and read it.All she sent is this

:)

These girls!!!! Only God has super powers to understand them. Here I go I said God.

Later I wondered if it is God who created people, why did he make huge diffrence between men and women, why cant he make them similar atleast in thought process? 2 girsls can easily understand whats going on in their mind and same is the case with 2 boys. Also I noticed boys don't gave a deep thoughts to so many things to which girls over think and make it complicated.

Yours,

Harika.

Go Green...Save Trees:)

Part5: Improbable

Na Aloki, I dont want to look in to it just now. Put your own thoughts, never seek for other's help while you are still writing it. I assure you. I will definetley help you edit and make corrections necessary at the end, said Richard.

Aloki nodded and kept her print out back. It has become practise for her to have a 30 minutes conversation with Richard everyday before her classes begins. Classes are exciting day by day. She didn't leave as soon as her classes are done, she is spending most of the time in library.

Somehow she didn't connect to people and didn't become close friends with any one yet. She felt it strange, She is such type of human where people instantly get connected, atleast thats what she heard all these days from people around her. She only had her room mates as friends now and none in college.

She maintained document in her phone, she writes when ever she gets fresh ideas. Sometimes when she sits to write her mind goes blank. She looks for real life incidents, sometimes even a word from people can inspire her to write.

After giving so much thought she gave up. She was struggling from morning to give name to her new book. Cool down Aloki, you can do it, she said to herself. She went through theme of her book mentally and suddenly it striked  her and she started scribbling in bold letters.

                                      IMPROBABLE

Relieved with the title, she started continuing the story from Ashwin's angle.

I dared to touch Sarayu who was lying on bed, by now I am sure pillow woud be completely wet. I took some tissues and handed it to her, she winced and threw my hand away. After a while, I gathered all my courage and held her in my arms, she didn't oppose, looks like she is calming down. My sinking feeling was moving away, slowly I felt better, I tried looking in to her eyes, to my disappointment she is sleeping.

I caressed her hair, kissed her on forehead and my thoughts rushed back to happy times we had, they seemed to be meant only for us.

Ashwin, its new movie out there, when are we going? called up excited Sarayu. I played with her for a while. Can't you think of the hour? Am lot busy than you and I hung up. I know, now she would have got her lower lip out and made a cute angry face. I visualised her face and smiled. She looks more cute when she does that.

I am equally scared that she may cry. Sarayu cries, like for every goddamn thing. that is one thing which I hate in her, I keep telling her, if there is any problem we will sort out together and never ever cry, I feel like an idiot when she cries, I always end up comparing my love with her parent's love and feel low. I always want to be on top in her view.

So I ended up calling her back in 5 minutes and surprised her that tickets were already booked for night show. Sarayu smiled.

It has become habit for us to watch night shows. We prefer going in bike unless it rains. Sarayu always puts her hand in my jacket while I drive. She says its cold and I love that. For a change she always drives back home. We have a kingdom of dogs which follows us on the way back, I would be scared but she says she can manage and accelrates.

On the way to movie she speaks a lot and I would be listening and vice versa happens. We majorly discuss reviews we had read about the movie and how we actually felt after watching the movie. I noticed, sometimes if movie is so bad that it gave us headache, Sarayu projects the story from her view and how she would have written it if she was the script writer. I suggest some other changes and we feel satisfied with our versions and laugh.

I remember n number of happy times we had. Now I see her silently lying in my lap like a kid. Unaware of everything.

Sarayu have the habbit of waking up late and I have habit of sleeping early. One day it so happened, she was in deep sleep and I was staring at her adorably. She just opened her eyes as if she knew that I was looking, she smiled and asked me why was I staring at her, I made a face and said my wife my wish. She laughed and hugged me. That day we slept hours together peacefully. I wish those days will be back soon.

Dreaming about future I drifted to sleep resting my back to the bed.


Your's
Harika
Go Green...Save trees:)

Part4: Origin

Let your dreams take shape

Give wings to your thougths

Let them fly...to the peace...to the nature...to the lovable world

I tell her these words and she threw up an puzzled expression. I know she would one day understand what I mean. I am married to her from 6 months, everything seems new, everything seems interesting, everything seems crazy, first 4 months flew like anything, we had innumerous happy moments. 

I dont know what's hurting her from past 2 months, she is behaving strange. She does not speak to me much, she rarely even look at me. Trying all means and ways, I failed to understand what's there in her brain. Worst part is she behaves as normal as evryday when there is someone's presence in my home. 

Slowly we are drifting apart, this barrier is bad, like it really sucks. Having her in my life was precious gift ever. I can understand she still cares. Not sure what has happened to her LOVE for me. People say men are rock and they never show feelings, it is true to certain extent, we generally don't show feelings but when it reaches peaks, its hard to hide. I decided to share....with my cousin Rajan.

Hey Rajan can you come down to our spot in 15 mins, I messaged him. Rajan rarely says no. As he replied, he was there on time. Its a hill view restaraunt we genrally go and drink. Hey Ashwin, Rajan greeted me. We ordered 2 chilled beers and settled down. He caught that I was sad within few minutes. 

What's wrong with you bro? asked Rajan. I threw up a smile which pretty much shows up it was forced.  Stop giving stupid smiles and tell me the matter demanded Mr. Rajan. I let out a deep sigh and explained him the situation. He understood that situation was worse than he expected and thought for a while.

Give her some more time and try to convince her, pamper her man, women always like to be pampered. She do expects your presence in her life, you are generally an workaholic ashole, take break and stay with her.

That sounded better to me aswell, next morning I called up my manager, applied one week leave, nothing mattered to me than Sarayu at this moment, I even planned a surprise tickets and gift wrapped them and placed in her cupboard. I peeped in to her room to secretly see her getting surprised, but what she did turned out to be a big shock to me. She tore the tickets angrily and put them in dustbin. That was hard to digest for me. 

I sneaked in to her romm and shouted at her, whats wrong with you Sarayu, have you gone mad??

She didn't even care to respond. She fell on the bed and slept crying. I cursed myself for scolding her, I should not have lost temper. This is not the way to manage, I should find proper solution and bring peace back to my life.

Aloki struggled with her thoughts, she is still in very starting phase of writing a full fledged book, she wondered how authors write such good content maintatining consistency through out the book. She mentally made note to show her starting pages to Richard and seek for corrections, she even thought of explaining the gist of her story to him.

Harika

Go Green....Save Trees:)

Part 3: GOAL

Some how she is liking this, more than anything in the world, the college, the library, books and especially so many achieved personalities moving just before her like any other normal human beings. She was more eager to go to college, that sounds rare though.

The fight with metro appeared better today, since she had one precious day of experience. She directly went to libray since she had 20 mins for her first class to begin. She searched for the librarian to share her thoughts about yesterday and atleast gain 0.0001 th percentage of his knowledge. Looking all over the library for him, Aloki tucked her way back disappointed, there, he appeared at the entrance, Good Morning young lady. Looks like you are punctual exclaimed the old man. 

Aloki's eyes lit up at the sight of him and wished him Good morning with a warm smile. Sir, may I know your name? asked Aloki in polite way. You can call me Richard, I don't like being called as Sir. Since Aloki had handfull of experience calling her team mates by name inspite of their age she didn't see any problem calling him by name. 

She nodded as courtesy. Well, where you looking for me Aloki? Dont get surprised again, I overheard your name too yesterday and he smiled. Aloki laughed alog with him and she explained each and every bit of what she analysed about the stages and how amazing she felt about it later. 

That's the power of books Aloki, they do not let you sleep, they make you retless until you find your answers. But once you have the knowledge, they get the heaven out of you. That pleasure can only be experienced. I am glad you are one of them. Aloki felt blessed.

I think it is time for your class. Good luck for your first class greeted the old man. Aloki nodded and rushed to her class.

Aloki took the middle row which was vacant next ot Adithi. Adhithi waved at her. During the whole day at college she met bunch of new people, it sounded strange when she thought these people whom she never met before would be part of her life from today.

It's her Professor  Hrithika's words which still sounded in her thoughts, They boosted her, they pushed her , they routed her entirely to a goal. It felt like Hrithika digged out a deep secret which was hidden in Aloki from ages. She used her profesor's golden words as starting lines to her BOOK, the wish she held for so long, the wish that's turning out to be true.  

                  Let your dreams take shape
                  Give wings to your thougths
                  Let them fly...to the peace...to the nature...to the lovable world

Your's
Harika Bojanala

Go Green...Save trees:)

Part2: Super natural powers?

Aloki smiled and entered college with a small prayer in her mind. She knew God will answer her prayers. HE never rejected her prayers, they were fulfilled, may be in different forms and timings but they always were!

She asked for the directions for her induction class from some one who seemed to be a senior. She acknowledged her said a thank you and was in her class. She just sat at the random empty one. Next to her was a young kid who looked almost 4 years younger to her, they both exchanged pleasantaries. Hey, this is Aloki, hey this is Adithi!

Soon, everyone stood up in respect to the professor who just enetered the class. Hello everyone I am Raghunandan. Please have your seat. I am glad to see you all  here. I know you are all excited to see what those old guys were up to those years? how they used to communicate? basically you love english, emotion and write up...that is what got you here...agree? asked Raghunandan with a smile. Everyone extended a broad smile and class went on enthusiastically introducing college and course structure for the 2 years, every student had glow in their eyes, they envisaged themselves as future writers/professors/Associates. The class was exciting and communication was bidirectional unlikely Aloki's degree induction class which she felt was boring. The reason might be because most of them chose this, like after  gaining complete senses and exposure to the world, they knew this is what they need, this is what they can live on!

Aloki was astounded by the collection of books in the library.It was a huge library with big strips set up on every corner seperating philosphy/ficiton/non ficition and so on endless geners, She thought a lifetime would not be sufficient to complete them. Every student will be given a login id and initial password soon, you can access the computers which are spread in between to track the book allotment faster explained librarian to bunch of  fresh faces before him. He looked older and strangely composed and calm. 

They dispersed to random directions, books attracted them like magnetic forces. Yay! this would be pleasure, Aloki already felt better joining college after such a long gap. There it is young lady, the book you were searching for, Aloki was startled to know someone speaking to her, she turned around only to see the librarian, hmm, you scared me sir, she told.

Haha! Sorry about scaring you, the book is over there in the 3rd row. Oh ok Thank you sir, she said and moved forward to get a glimpse of the book. It striked to her after a moment, she left the book there and immediately moved to librarian, sir, how did you know i was looking for this book, I didn't even tell you.

Librarian took a deep breath and said "I am sure you will not believe this, I have got powers to read people's mind, If I am not wrong, you are now in stage 4 of reading course. Stage 4 is an interesting phase though, when I was during that stage I was searching for answers for every goddamn thing, your soul just gets excited with the term question! As a part of wanting to find who you are, purpose of your life and meaning of existence, you would tend ro read more books, you would tend to gain more knowledge, don't worry, at the end you would be successful.

Aloki dropped her jaw in surprise! how does he know everything, is it true or is he just playing somekind of random joke. Aloki made a face which portraited every single emotion of what she is going through and her quizacal look made the old man smile, Easy, easy lady! I just made fun. I overheard you speaking about the book with your friend and thought I would help you.

Ohhh! that is it, I really was wondering how you aquired super natural powers! Librarian smiled and left the place.

He moved forward leaving behind strong imprints in Aloki.

It was around when she was 22 she started reading books, she was fascinated by word LOVE, she fell in love with characters of the book, she laughed when they had fun, she was depressed when the character was depressed, she cried with them feeling the pain, she grew up with characters in the book.

Aloki didn't leave single famous book on love, she experienced butterflies in stomach reading them, it was always joyous to see someone happy, like they show in movies happily ever after!

She did get attracted to men, girls do have crush! but nothing lasted more than 10 days. Whether it was hormonal change or the age or the thought process that matters, she started losing interest in love stories, she could not relate herself to them, she just could not feel. She believed there was more to love, she believed there was more to life.

This tickling didn't leave her until she found new interests, strangely, she got attracted to crime, suspense thrillers, power and women in ancient history. She grabbed the knowledge like a pro on history, the power women showed to come out of the circle that had challenged them and restricted to particular fields was enormous, Aloki was simply inspired. She could even imagine how draupadi suggested her husbands in every matter she was aware of and they were glad enough to take her suggestions. Only, if she had known about gambling that was taking place, she would have stopped in the first place and there would not be a war called kurukshetra that caused mass destruction to human life.How she would have struggled to overcome the barriers.

Women at that time with restrictions did achieve so much, she thought to herself she could achieve more and can create miracles since she have so many people patting her back and walking along with her in every part of life. She did learn a lot and that transformed her to a different human being altogether.

After a few years of digging in to past, she was interested about current time, what is she now? why was she even born?what was the purpose of life?

She is currently in the process of finding answers to her endless questions.

After this analysis she was sure she was in stage 3. But he said she was in stage 4. She thought a lot through out her journey to her room, it suddenly striked her, those 22 years she wasted in her mere life with out reading any books other than subjects might come under stage 1 which she missed, if god gives her a chance she runs back to past and read all the comics, mougli adventures, and other things again and again.

That was just awesome, librarian predicted her stage in reading just by the book she chose. Now she knew, every part of him is knowledge, he is like a walking book.



Yours,
Harika.

Go Green...Save trees:)