When someone expresses love, it should give immense happiness, but here, it left all of us startled. It was Ram who responded first. Neha, I want you to be clear on these things " I never expected you would propose me and I am sorry to say this, I don't think I love you!"
Though Ram was saying No to Neha I could not hear it, I don't like any one saying "you are rejected". Tears rolled down my eyes and Neha too was crying. Ram really felt bad. He tried convincing us in all possible ways.
Neha finally said, why she didn't speak with me. She witnessed me dreaming about Ram, now she herself loves him and she started feeling jealous if Ram is close with other girl. Here she goes, she already started addressing me as someone else. It was too much for her to even think that she is loving someone, her best friend dreamt about and she felt GUILTY!
I really could not hear any of her nonsense talk and said this "so, you could not with hold your guilt and made me feel more sad, is it?".
I am so sorry Akanksha, I lost my senses and I was not under my control. You always remain my best friend and I can't take back my feelings for Ram, if you are fine with it, we will remain friends forever!
Meanwhile Ram opened his mouth wide open, not understanding a bit of what was happening!
He broke the silence of jaw dropping things there, "So girls! if i am not wrong, both of you loves me, and I have became a candy for you is it!" It was first time I saw anger in Ram's eyes.
Of,course, it is human, any genuine guy would get anger here and Ram is not divine. I wanted to say so many things there, it was damn true that I really developed some kind of closeness with Ram when I first saw him on the bike. When we started moving around and talking to each other, I knew it was surely not Love.
I liked him as a person, and most of all, I loved his profession. We never felt like extending conversations for longer time, we never spoke about love!, we never went hand in hand, we almost treated each other like friends and I am happy with what we have now!
I missed him, but not like a lover, when we meet over weekends I was happy and I never wanted to meet him alone, I was always happy when he got a gang of friends along. I was clear of what my relationship with Ram is, gathering all guts, I explained everything to Ram and people over there.
Ram gave a "thank-god-atleast-you-understood-what-i am" look. It was Neha's turn to get startled now! she didn't say a word and moved away. Later Ram and Akash asked me what was it? I was so angry with Neha, I just shrugged.
Neither Ram, nor me could come out of it. We all bid good bye and left.
How could she talk like this, all these years of our friendship does not mean anything to her? is she really saying this or some kind of demon occupied Neha? I am totally fine if she loves Ram or who ever it is, but she said we can be friends only If I accept it, can anyone change drastically so fast?
I so wanted answers for every question from Neha, but I know, this is not the right time to talk to her. So, I chose to be silent.
I will not let 20 years of our friendship ruin with just one incident. Some one said "If your friendship stays for more than 12 years, it is likely that it lasts forever"
I reached home. Neha was crying hard. I don't know whether Ram loves her back or not, but I cant see my best friend crying, I so wanted to console her. I just moved in and said "Neha".
Enough is enough just move away Akanksha, Please leave me alone! Neha replied back, it did hit me hard. I really felt like crying. I drifted away with out saying a word and holding my tears.
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