Tuesday, 28 June 2016

Part7: Other side of the coin

Sarayu greeted opposite person. Since she was standing opposite to him I could not get glimpse at first but when I realised who it was I went speechless! It was ADARSH. I could not believe this, they were speaking as if they know each other from long time.

They spoke something seriously for a while, they exchanged some photos through phone as far as I understood. I wondered what was going on there. For a moment, I felt Adarsh wanted to solve the issue and might be speaking with her, but it is so unlikely to believe that they don't know each other from what I see.

My guts didn't support me to stay for long, I went back home and  plopped on bed. What's happening in my life? everything is going un expected. If he really want to meet Sarayu why didn't Adarsh tell me when we first met.

I trust Sarayu completely and  no doubt in it, but I really wanted to know why she is doing all strange things. I wanted to get things clear no matter what. 

Sarayu came home rather happily. I didn't know how to respond. For God's sake, can you please explain what's happening in my life Sarayu? and why did you meet Adarsh? how do you know him?

Sarayu stared at me and said "so, you spyed on me Ashwin?"

Umm, I can not let more misunderstandings peep in, so I explained everything, she kind of looked convinced.

Sarayu leave everything and tell me , I want to know every goddamn thing and this heck of suffering should end today.

Sarayu let out a deep sigh.I will tell you everything Ashwin, but first I am sorry for making you go through hell, I literally went through same hell. I made you cry and I cried more for making you so. I was in a state of quandry. I was unable to decide between good and bad. I completely needed to know truth.

It was around few days before I recieved a message from unknown person in whatsapp. It read Ahswin is an idiot, he plays with people and their life, don't trust him. I was angry seeing that message, I didn't wanted to see any word bad on you, I simply blocked the number. Next day, I recieved a parcel with a letter in it. 

I opened the letter and it said

If you don't do as I instructed, your dearest husband Ashwin will be shot! You will see the consequences if you ignore. 

You know what Ashwin? the font was written in Bold red and there was no address on the post. I was dumbstruck seeing the post. I suddenly felt like I was under survilliance of someone. 

The person sent instructions to me 2 days once, I strictly followed them in fear of losing you. The letter always said not to be in good terms with you and I should not speak with you. At one point of time I even thought of divorcing you instead of making you go through this hell.

I thought and thought and thought, but could not get a clue on who it was. I even tried tracking the blocked number expecting some clue. I approached my friend who works in telephone department and it was taken with wrong address in illegal means. To continue digging more details, I was worried he would find out and cause you harm.

The person used to send me letters abusing you in meanest ways. I was wondering what harm you did that made him/her do such extreme things. They are not troubling you physically and they are not demanding me money, So, I didn't understand the whole concept of what they would yield out of it.

After checking for the details of the number, I waited if they would warn me. I didn't get anything. I assumed they are not aware of my activites. I went ahead with further more digging. My friend verified previous records and sent me the persons who used the sim earlier to this person. 

I glanced through first 2 records and could not find anything. The 3rd record was known person. I remember seeing him. I pressured my brain and it suddenly hit me. It was Adarsh. I had met Adarsh in my friend's wedding. I was shocked to see Adarsh pic there. 

Was he doing everything? what does he want? why is he doing this?

I immediately replied to my friend and asked to get details of Adarsh if she can. Since she works in telephone department. She has many other friends who works for other networks.

There was a deal between us, what ever emails I send her should be read and deleted immediately and same is the case for me. She said she needs 2 days time to get Adarsh number.

That 2 days were night mare for me. I used to get scared that the person will find out and will harm you. The very next day he wrote, I will update you next major step in 24  hours, if you do any crazy stuff in between you know what would happen.

It was like my nerves will split up any moment with fear and tesnsion. I felt like hugging you and crying loudly. 

Harika Bojanala:)
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Tuesday, 21 June 2016

Part6: unforeseen

After a deep analysis and knowing  I can't do anything about it...I forced my brain not to think about it. It flew to a different direction, I made root cause analysis for sarayu's whats called as an intelligent response. I thought sarayu might have been happy and sent a smiley  and my brain said think with common sense Ashwin, if she is happy why is she not talking to you.

Later that night my mobile beeped, it was a whatsapp message from Adarsh.

Any problem mate? you sounded troubled? would be glad to help you, if I can!

I smiled reading the message, he is saviour, when I last met Adarsh he saved my life, like I am alive just because of him. I was walking on a busy street with headset tucked in my ears and higher volume. I was so deeply involved in the music I didn't notice a car which was almost close to hit me, that's when Adarsh came running and dragged me aside. What I did not understand was he immediately started his bike and started following it at high speed, I shouted Adarsh, wait I am comming, he was long gone before I could say anything more. Later I tried reaching him through phone n number of times and I went to his room only to find it closed. He stayed alone and I have no contact with any one else who knows him. All my attempts to have any kind of contact with him were invain.

Now here he is, suddenly appeared in my life like a magic. I started feeling positive. I replied him, we will meet tomorrow at garden restaurant 10 A.M. He replied Ok.

Since it was sunday, there was little crowd in the restaurant. It was breezy pleasant morning. I was looking at the clouds and was thinking deeply, Don't gaze too much man, u will get even the clouds down! I turned around to see smiling Adarsh.

We ordered breakfast and started discussing. I explained him each and every bit of what had happened. He listened to everything patiently. Later he told me something which made me realise Sarayu's love towards me more.

Something might be bothering her man, may be a big thing which you hided ftrom her and which she found out or she must be under pressure about something, she might be struggling whether to tell you or not. Inspite of all these, she still loves you, that's how she didn't leave you, that's how she cooks your favourite stuff, that's how she is trying not to make your personal matters public.

After listening to what Adarsh said, I felt happy, atleast my so called happily ever after life is not going to end. Sarayu loves me. The thought itself made me feel better.

Comming to the secrets, I dont have one, I have shared everything with her. I even told her about my past affair and how we broke up, it was not even love, it was just two unmatured male and female who thought it was love and were in relationship for few months.

I finally asked Adarsh to advice me . He said time heals everythig and have faith in god. That was the least disppaointing reply I expected from him.

Umm I sighed and we parted ways. When we came out Adarsh started to home in his bike and I kick started my bike in opposite direction towards my home. That's when I noticed Sarayu in her vespa she wears an half helmet inspite of my insistence that it is not safe. She covered her face with the shawl. I was wondering where she is heading to at this hour.

I reluctantly followed her. I know it is worst manner but I didnt have any other choice. She was heading in the staraight road and was riding faster than her usual speed. She finally took a right turn and stopped at a restaurant. She parked her vehicle and went inside.

She went and sat in a table which said reserved.

I was in utter shock at the sight of what was happening there.

Go Green...Save Trees

Thursday, 16 June 2016

Part5: Strange things at odd times

Sarayu got up with a thud and pushed me aside. I was so weak to even protest, I let go of her. I slept ignoring every freaking thing as if it never happened. My eyes were so heavy, it looked like I took responsibilities of each and every person in the world and I alone worked on their behalf. They refused to listen to me, for a while I ignored whole world and slept. 

I slept for what felt like an eternity, I woke up after a relaxed sleep and moved to kitchen to see if there was food left over for me. Sarayu prepared my favourite ragi balls and daal. Looks like even she didn't touch the food. I am scared now, she is turning out to be wierder day by day,  its time to take her to a doctor.

I took food in a plate and requested her to eat. Better mind your own freaking bussiness Mr.Ashwin was her curt reply. I sighed, I didn't want to spoil my health, I should be atleast strong enough to take care of her. I calmly sat at the couch and started eating.

Sarayu threw back, I-can't-believe-you-are-ignoring-me-and-eating look at me. I gave a weak smile. Surprisingly she waved her hand in the air saying whatever, she moved in to kitchen and got her food, she sat on the mini stool and started eating. I patted myself in mind and it felt like a perfect strategy to make her eat and gain health again.

We sat seperately and ate , with millions of thoughts running in each of us, the TV we were watching just felt like the background for those thoughts.

It was fun watching TV earlier. we have set it up so well, we used to play good old HD quality movies in our 42 inch sony TV which felt like a mini theater. I used to prepare pop corn and masala papad. Sarayu used to cook whichever I liked. Every Saturday night used to be heaven. We cuddle each other and enjoy the show. Half of the times Sarayu dozes off to sleep in the middle, I make her sleep comfortable, cover her with a blanket and reduce volume so that she does not get disturbed, She holds my hand in between and sleeps like a kid.

We are together even now but like 2 startngers in same room under same roof. Nothing else is common. If she really has a problem, can't she tell me? Am I that hard hearted man who does not listen? I drew towards negativity. It is at this time I behave like an idiot. Before I scold her again. I moved out slamming the door hard.

After going out I messaged her, Sarayu...I really love you. Please tell me if I did something wrong, I will definitely correct it, I swear. 

I know she ignores this message like 1000s of my useless messgaes from past few days. I roamed, roamed and roamed aimlessly. It started raining, I didn't mind getting drenched, so I started walking towards nowhere, Thats when suddenly put a hand on my shoulder, little scared I turned back only to see my old friend.

Hey Ashwin, Good to see you man! how are you! where were you all these days, he didn't change even a bit, he is same old Aadarsh who speaks non stop. I said ohh ohh Adarsh give your questions a break, u have not changed a bit. He laughed and we discussed how he suddenly appeared here. 

Adarsh was not actually my friend, we met rather strange. I rarely go to temples. But that day Rajan pulled me inside since it was his birthday and he is big devotee. Feeling bored inside, I looked at Adarsh who was lighting a diva with pure devotion. I could see it in his eyes. I rarely saw guys doing this stuff. So I even smiled at him. He smiled back. I could not sustain my eagerness. I somehow wanted to know what lead him to divinity. He smiled and said if time comes even you will be routed to GOD.

I did not understand it at that moment. Even now I don't understand it. I see Rajan doing prayers but I never noticed that spark in anyone else but Adarsh.

Me and Adarsh met in strangest kind of ways for few more days. He was in touch for few days and disappeared suddenly. Now he comes again. We spoke for longest time. 

It was almost in the mid night I reached home. We have 2 keys. I opened the door with my key and went inside. I opened my phone to save Adarsh number. I had asked him to dial in. Thats when I noticed. Sarayu had replied to my message. I felt like an achiever, my heart beat was faster than usual, if there was any meter to measure it would have blasted at the moment, I was scared to see the message. Finally I gained all strength and read it.All she sent is this


These girls!!!! Only God has super powers to understand them. Here I go I said God.

Later I wondered if it is God who created people, why did he make huge diffrence between men and women, why cant he make them similar atleast in thought process? 2 girsls can easily understand whats going on in their mind and same is the case with 2 boys. Also I noticed boys don't gave a deep thoughts to so many things to which girls over think and make it complicated.

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