Thursday, 22 May 2014

Part 10: They lived Happily ever after:)

Before I could realize she slapped me...she hugged me tight and she is crying!!! God I can not believe this, Nithya hugged me and all other surprises were in queue from her. She kissed on the same cheek which she slapped and whispered Sorry in my ears. I was still in trans with happiness and having no clue whether this is a dream or real.

When I was about to say something, she shut my mouth with her hand and led me out of airport, she hired a cab and asked me to get in...She rested her head on my shoulder and started speaking...I am extremely sorry for being rude to you Ram! You have no idea how much I missed you...

I wish I had accepted your LOVE as soon as you proposed me!

I wish I should not have hurt you to extremes!

Of all, I wish I should get back those 3 deadly weeks which I spent with out you and make them most memorable days in my life with your presence!!!

 and  she looked in to my eyes with tears...I looked her back with same tears in my eyes too...we became emotional...Finally I gathered guts to kiss her...oops we reached her home and Sam was waiting there to receive us.

We both got down from the cab holding hands...Sam was there and I was smiling like an idiot and blushing, looking at him.He hugged me and said I told you Ram that you will get back with loads of happiness!!!. I smiled and said Yes man you are my best buddy right,your wishes came true!!!

We all got inside home and there he was...Srinivasan sir, I was so happy to see him and I went and took his blessings and Thanked him for everything..he smiled at me and made me and Nithya stand together and clicked a pic:)

Sam and Srinivasan sir stayed with us till afternoon and left us after a while. Silence was ruling between us after they left...I dragged Nithya and took her in my arms and I asked Nithya tell me those wonderful words at least now!!

She tried to move away from me but this time I did not let her go...She smiled and said "there is a surprise for you Ram!!Let me give it to you first" . It was all amazing to listen such sweet words from her...I let her show me surprise...She handled a big box with a gift wrapper.

I was so excited and started opening the my surprise there were 3 other boxes inside it...Every box had an order to open...I started opening the box numbered 1...God!!!It was the same pic which I got in dream that she gifted me when I proposed her!

I could not with stand my excitement to see the other boxes...I opened box numbered 2....This was awsome...It contained my favorite Micky box which I never used to give to any one when I was a kid and one cute childhood pic of mine!!I was wondering where she got the box (it was in my home with my parents)

And I disclosed the third box and it contained two rings with hearts and a hand made card...I opened the card first!

I LOVE YOU Ram!!more than I could love myself!!

May be after seeing so many surprises actions speak more than words...I took out the rings and we exchanged them, so we are officially engaged!!!

I understood that the three gifts were for those 3 weeks which we were not together and each gift represents a week. But I did not have any clue why she gave numbering to them. I know she reads my brain so she started explaining 

Ram!!The first day when you left me with out uttering a word and handling that letter...I felt angry...then I told myself  let him go...I can live with out is not a big deal.

With out my knowledge I started asking Sam about you  just in an hour you left me...Sam said you left to Mumbai for a training and you have changed your number and dont want to contact any of us...
Again I thought whats wrong with this kiddo!!Let him do what ever he wants!!

I wanted to divert myself from your thoughts  through work. But nothing of that sort happened!!The more I tried not to think of you..the more you started occupying my thoughts!!I never felt like that before for anyone!! Then I wondered was it LOVE?this was how Ram felt about me!!!

But I was still in confusion whether it was LOVE or nothing of that type.I realized just in two days that I love you like anything in the world, when you were not around me!The parks which was so encouraging with your existence made me feel sick even to enter. Then I met Srinivasan uncle and he asked me why I looked so dull? I told him everything about you and me and how your absence caused pain in my life!!He consoled me and said "Ram and you are meant to be couple...Do not worry and Ram will definitely come back to you ...true Love never fails!!" His words made me believe everything and that made me wait for you...

Though your absence hurts I was happy that I LOVE YOU...then I started asking Sam for all the photographs we took...when I was looking at all the snaps I saw this pic in which you were staring at me with lots of LOVE. I liked it so much and made a frame of that.

By end of first week I knew I was in deep LOVE with you...I started wishing that I had known you from childhood so that we could have spent more time in our life together.You know, I became a good friend to your sweet little sister!!We both chat in whats app regularly and I got that childhood pic of yours from her and by the way you look so damn cute in that Ram! and the Micky box, I know you love it...I got that one also from your sister!!those 2 were for the 2nd week!!

The third week...I could not bear the thought that you were away from me...I started imagining our wedding but before that I have to express my LOVE. Then I knew I loved you more than myself!! 

That is how the gifts built up...I took help of Sam to buy the rings then he told me that you will reach Banglore soon...I was so excited and insisted Sam that I will receive you in airport.

Wow!!!If a girl falls in LOVE it will be so amazing....I was moved by her words, gifts and everything....I had planned so many things to say her but now when everything is going as I wished no words reached her from me.... I took her in my arms and our kiss...lasted for 60 seconds!!!

Those 60 seconds were the wonderful minute in our life!!!

Nithya..You are crazier than me, I whispered in her ears!!!She smiled and said Yes Ram, If it makes you happy....I was the reason for so much hurt in your life..will you forgive me for all I did?....
No, never ever say that may be the reason for hurt but I know you suffered more than me in this 3 weeks...and I did not know what to do, to make you realize that you Love me and it is Srinivasan sir who gave this idea to spend some time away from you...she was surprised to listen that and we both thanked him in our hearts!  

This was the time to unveil to her that I Loved her with out seeing her!! I continued, Nithya!!1 loved you before knowing how you look..she was shocked listening to that and looked at me to say more...I told her, how I first had glance at her when she was weaving hands in the air for the music with out caring for the world, how I followed her in the lift like an idiot!!!She was blushing listening all this and said You are really a kid Ram.

We did not even notice that it was evening already and it was she who said that I must be hungry!!!That's the girl thing....they get to know everything once they start Loving you!!!

It was little difficult in the initial stages when I told in my home about Nithya!! But I convinced them saying Nithya is so good in every aspect and she suits me and they too will like her if they see her. Nithya was tensed to meet my parents for the first time. I just said her "Think that they are your parents....they will definitely accept you."

Finally the moment arrived...Nithya met my family...As I said they liked her so sister was so happy to see Nithya in person!!!

Our wedding went in all time high celebration!!! We did not miss any our friends!!! Sam, Neha, our school friends, college friends, colleagues,relatives.neighbours and Srinivas sir every one witnessed our happy moment and  blessed us!!!

I never say that we dont fight now!!! we fight at times, but our Love for each other dominates our problems , fights and makes our love  journey happy and Successful. This continues forever!!

Guys!!! We have not named the story until now!!! And TITLE of the story is

I just said "I LOVE YOU"

I truly dedicate this first official story in my blog to

Shwetha Rangaswamy- Remember, around 1 year back I had told you that I will dedicate my first story  to you and here it is:)  So many things in my life would have been impossible if I had not met you...It is like, you have introduced different unknown version of me to myself:) Thanks for everything!!

Archana Penubolu- Where to are super, awsome... I have learnt so many things from you...You are truly  kind of role model to me!! The way you simplify, complex things is amazing:)

Varsha- I never knew I can become close to some one just in 3 days...You incorporated confidence in me and encouraged me in every aspect. Thanks for everything!!

I thank my friends Harika, Swathi, Monika, Archana, Reddy, Anjali for their curiosity to read every part, every week...your encouragement made me think more and write good.

I also Thank Vivek Anna  for letting me know what you actually felt reading each actually pulled up my confidence levels to write more!!!

I truly thank all my readers who followed this 10 parts of story and made it a hit!!

Signing of for this week with the last part of the story!!!

I will get back to you with something amazing in few weeks:)Thoughts in progress for next blog;)

Harika Bojanala

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Thursday, 15 May 2014

Part 9: Missing Moments

Everyone else in the world can understand me, except Nithya!! I thought why is it only me? I reached Nithya's home and handed over the letter and told her it was not a love letter and left her place with out uttering a word.Where are you going Ram? You are all packed with lots of luggage? she was like stream of questions but my mouth was tied up hoping something else.

All set to go? Sam brought me back from continuous chain of my thoughts from the past to the current world... I wondered how I remember each little minute I spent with her,the moment I met her, the moment our messages started, spending time together...I looked at Sam and said "except for one thing!" he was puzzled and asked what it was? " I am just moving away from Nithya leaving my heart here Sam."

I know man, how it feels for you now, but you will be back with loads of happiness!!my words will come true... saying this Sam bid me goodbye!!

Now I am in flight fingers crossed not knowing where my life will lead me to.I called up Srinivasan sir and told him that I handed over letter to Nithya which says I will never be part of her life from now. He wished me Good Luck and asked me to be cool.

I hope that all wishes will come true and I will have a splendid life with Nithya ahead. I am on the way to Mumbai for a company training for 3 weeks.Staying away for little long time from your loved ones with out any contact not even single word...will make you miss the person most...I know it is hell for me with out seeing her, listening to her sweet voice..her happiness, anger everything make me remember her all over again...but to know, how it feels to her I should stay away from her...that was the idea Srinivasan sir has suggested me and I implemented first part of it by putting my words in rude manner in her letter.

I planned this trip as surprise to Nithya earlier(I was so damn sure that she will accept my LOVE and this would be our first trip together)...I hated even the thought of staying away from her...but I don't have an other option now.

First day in Mumbai...far away from her...I kept on checking mobile phone expecting messages from her...then my brain said "you are an idiot, you changed your number and have not shared with her and asked Sam also not to give any of your can she reach you?"

Work...I never felt work will soothe me like a drug...I worked like a maniac...I forced myself to work for 12 hours so that at least my body would get tired physically and will allow me to sleep...Somehow I managed mornings...but it was the nights that killed me with her did not allow me to sleep ...Every night I keep thinking of her, the wonderful time we had other guys were jealous when I took her in bike...they make smile and worry at same time.

If "I miss you" are the 3 words which state my feelings...those words are small and not enough to say badly I want her with me.

I forced myself for a typical routine for next 3 weeks...I get up at 5 A.M...I will make tea for myself... do some basic warm up exercises...head towards a park and until all pain goes out of my body in the form of until my feet gets hurt and dominates my mental stress... come back get ready and back to office, work like hell and get back to room and doze off, not giving time for my brain to think.

Even with this tough routine...I get up in the middle of the nights and search for her around and realize she is not reachable to eyes get wet and doze off.

Finally the three deadly weeks passed and now I am on the way back to Banglore..this time I am not expecting anything because all my expectations earlier had failed very badly...But I know my buddy Sam will be there to receive me in the airport.

To my surprise I found Nithya staring at me and I could not find Sam anywhere. I picked my baggage and went straight to her and said "Hi Nithya"

She is angry...her eyes says everything...she will at least say I miss you... is what I was thinking...instead she slapped me!!!

What next??

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Harika Bojanala:)
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Friday, 9 May 2014

Part 8: An idea can change our life??

You are just a friend Ram...I could not handle this words from her...I didn't know what to do...I was  worried...thinking how to change her I slept off...

I got up with the alarm as usual..I had Good Morning message from Nithya too...I was happy seeing her message after yesterday discussion...we went for jog...but I was not like before...that eagerness to see her...that excitement to speak with her still remains the same in my heart but I was not ready to show her my tore me apart every time she called me friend...I can never be her friend even in my wildest dreams...

She found out that I was not normal...I behaved strange...I did not respond to her properly....Whats with you Ram?Cant you be like before? she asked me...I just smiled...that smile was like "I am dying inside but I act as if nothing happened, kind of smile." Later I didn't utter a word till I reached her home..she asked me to get inside...I just said bye and left.

She messaged me..Ram you are always my best friend..please remain the same, I cant see you sad because of me..I don't want this to happen to the special person in my life just because of me.

I felt throwing the mobile far away and shout " are not my friend..You are my life...but I don't want to keep on repeating the same thing to her...rather I did not reply to her message."

The same cafeteria which felt so beautiful with her presence, now lost the charm with her words...she took so much effort to make me happy again..I did not want to hurt her I started behaving normal with her...

I took her out for lunch...we had nice food and she asked for an ice cream with all excitement like a kid and we ordered for one..she selected all the flavors and sauces for turned out colorful and is her touch that makes everything get a life...she has some magic around her...we did not sit inside the ice cream parlor...rather we went outside and sat on the steps speaking and laughing...those moments that I spent with her still plays before my eyes...

We spent so much time that we did not even notice time and it was late to office...latter I told "Nithya we are getting late"....she saw time and got tensed and scolded me sweetly...I would never know time when I am with you Ram...I did not leave any moment to tell her it is LOVE and not friendship..then I told her this is LOVE Nithya and I am not blessed by God to enjoy this moments whole heartedly because you have not realized the chemistry between us. she became angry..she showed it through her expressions...that was enough for me and I could not say other word...that was the first time I was seeing her angry on me...we both left to office...I did not message her and even she did not.

Next 2 days we did not see each between she sent me a message saying she was not well and want to take rest...I wanted to meet her and take her to doctor and stay with her...but I know if I go there, things will get more worse and she will be annoyed. So I controlled myself very badly not to see her or message her...but I was very much worried about her health inside..I got complete details of her health every now and then from Neha...Thank God, Neha did not take me wrong...I disturbed her many times to ask about Nithya.

I continued going for jog alone...Srinivasan met me and enquired about Nithya, I told him that she was not well...I was just existing in the world as it was my duty to live...the old man was very concerned about me...he put his arm around my shoulder and said "Son,think of me as your dad and tell me whats worrying you from so don't seem to be happy..", I did not wanted to trouble this man life with my I said nothing sir...I am just tired.

He smiled and looked at me and said I have seen more life than you, my son...I cant promise you to solve your problems but I can definitely help you to my best...I did not have any other choice and told him how I met I proposed she told me I am her friend and every small thing that I had gone through in my life with Nithya...he listened to every word in patience...

He started speaking"I have a solution for your problem..but it is very difficult to implement and he looked at me, I was very eager to know about the solution...he then continued Nithya is very lucky to have you in her life Ram, I can see the LOVE you have for her in every word you said about her...Don't worry she is all yours and he smiled."

I felt very much better after talking to Srinivasan...I didn't know what was his solution but he has seen more life than me, he has gone through so many things that I don't even know would exist...such kind of person saying Nithya will be mine made me feel better and soothing.

Then I spoke with him for long time and finally I was satisfied and was ready to implement what he said...I thought to myself at least this would work out and Nithya will feel my LOVE and I thanked him for spending half of his day for me and I dropped him home and reached my room.

What did Srinivasan suggest Ram?Did it work out??

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Harika Bojanala:)

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Thursday, 1 May 2014

Part 7: Love????!!!!:):(

"I Love you too Ram" I want to see you right now and tell you how much you mean to me!!I do not want this wonderful moment to go with messages..." my phone blinked with message and it was the happiest part of my life...I could not hold that happiness any more...I smiled like an idiot, danced, jumped around and was in Nithya's home in 5 minutes.

She was waiting for me out side and she started blushing seeing me. She took me in holding my hand. All this days her touch was creating sensation only in me but now I am sure it is same for her too and that made me luckiest person in the world.

We hugged each other and I whispered "I love you" in her ears...She did not speak for a moment...I badly wanted to listen those 3 magical words from her...I again said "Nithya I love you"...She kissed me on forehead and presented me a gift.

I was very eager to open it when I was about to open she said "You mean world to me Ram...I love you " we both were in happy tears...after childhood tears came out of my eyes and I was happy about it...Moments like this can never come back, they are unerasable and took special place in my heart and memory too.

I curiously opened the gift pack and it was our first picture clicked together in which I was staring at her very badly that it was so obvious for anyone who look in to that picture will get to know that I feel she is mine. I was actually shocked how she got this picture it was actually taken by Sam accidentally when we all went out as a gang and even I did not know that he had taken this pic untill he showed it me.

There came the other surprise at backside of photo "I know you love me from the moment I met you Ram...because it happened with me too"

Now this was a sweet surprise to me that Nithya was also in Love with me all this days...I just looked in to her eyes and they told me so many unsaid feelings she have for me and I kissed them...

Wake up Wake up....My alarm started ringing...I got up suddenly and turned it off and said to was just a dream!!!

I wished my dream would come true and I eagerly checked my phone inbox and whatsapp for her messages. There was nothing..not even the Good Morning message she sends me every morning...I was worried, confused  but was confident that Nithya will accept my LOVE. There must be some strong reason for her not to message me..may be, like in my dream she wants to convey her acceptance in real.

I messaged her Good Morning...what about jog today?

Nithya: Good Morning Ram

Me: Not well?

Nithya: No am fine

Me: Shall I start to your home?

Nithya: Yeah we will go for jog

Me: okay...will be there in few minutes

After this short conversation I got ready quickly thinking why she did not get this topic at all, for which I was waiting eagerly.

I was there in her home. She was ready by that time and was waiting for me outside...I said Hi and we started.

we got in to the same park...She was talking, talking and continuously saying something but I was thinking, yes! next minute she will speak about minute...Minutes went on to half n hour but still she did not speak about it. Soon we finished of jogging and rested on the bench and I was having water, then came Srinivisan and said Hi to both of us...I used to wish this man very happily everyday from the day he introduced himself to us on first day in I was getting restless and just said Hi to him...I think he understood that I was not in good mood .Nithya as usual spoke very happily to him and wished the old man to have a nice day.I was still dreaming about her response then she called me Ram...I turned eagerly and she said shall we started surrounding me like a friend.I just said yes and we both reached her home.

she asked me to get in, to have honey but I was sure that if I get in, I will speak about my letter to her...then I thought "Ram... she is a girl and she need some time to say is a life changing decision"

I said "I will catch you in the office"  and I left.

Till I reached office I was rewinding every moment I spent with her. Every second I spent with her was like party to me then I wondered if she felt the same. To know about all this I have to wait till lunch. I called up Sam and said I will take Nithya out for lunch and will talk to her in peace. He wished me luck.

I messaged Nithya asking shall we go out for lunch? She replied saying she was busy with work and can not come. I replied back "k", after that we did not speak. I was scared that she may say No to me and I scolded myself for being in such a hurry to propose her.

Other side of me was saying she is planning for a surprise to you dude as you got in dream...I did not know which side of me to believe but my heart chose second one...soon my brain was saying she does not love you..if she did...she would have let you know by now...idiot stop dreaming about her and concentrate on your work....

Occupied by so many thoughts no human being can concentrate on work...I reached to my lead and took an off, saying I was not feeling well and left office.

I was expecting a message from Nithya asking why I did not join for lunch with them but nothing of that sort happened. I could not hold all this in, for long time... it was like it would burst out of my heart any minute.

I waited till the time she generally reaches home and messaged her if I can call her?

I did not get a reply...I went crazy and called her my bad luck she did not pick the call...

Almost after an hour she called me back and I did not know that I was very rude to soon as I picked the call...I said "where the hell  are you and why you are not replying to my messages and not picking my calls"

I think she was shocked to hear such rude tone of mine for the first time with her but I could not help it, I did not knew what it was and why it was, but I was not in my senses...she said I think you are being different Ram, I will call you latter and cut the call"

She messaged me immediately.."I was in a meeting and had put my phone in silent and checked my mobile just now after reaching home"

After reading that I felt bad...I really felt bad for my rude behavior... and replied back saying sorry :(

She replied "its okay:)"

I thought I had hurt her enough already and I can not irritate her even more and I kept quiet and controlled myself not to message her...but I wanted to make her happy again I still remember the pretty Nithya smiling as soon as she sees me every time and it should never change anytime..

I took a dairy milk silk chocolate and reached her home..I was hiding in pocket to surprise her latter...I went in and said Sorry again..she gave that cutest smile and said "Your are a kid Ram... can not you understand that meetings happen to me also and I should also put my phone in silent"...yeah the words she said were 100% true..then I too smiled and said Sorry again and gave her chocolate...she was happy seeing it,  she exactly eats it like kids with amusement as though she is eating chocolate for the first time and I love it...After finishing the chocolate she said if you get me chocolates like this, I will fight with you every day...I smiled and said I can get chocolates with out fight also and I can not afford to fight again with her and be rude to her...awww that is so sweet of you Ram she said. We spoke for some more time and I left wishing her a very Good night.

 I was lying on my bed thinking about her and dozed off...I woke up in the middle with the fear of losing her in my life...I could not sleep again and tried to call her but my brain said she might be sleeping my heart said you can call her and clarify things and be in peace...My heart won as everytime and I called her up..probably she was sleeping she picked up after long ring...She said hello in a very drowsy way...I felt bad again for waking her in the late night and told her I called to wish her Good night again and kept the phone down. I never behaved like this with any one. If I keep on doing this she might get negativity about me I should stop this and waited till it was morning.

It was morning and I could not wait anymore and after our jog we reached her home and as she was about to enter kitchen I held her hand and said Nithya I love you...she moved away from me and she turned her face to the other side she did not even look at me...I could not bear this any more and I started crying like a kid...then she said the words which any guy in the world can not hear from the girl who he thinks as  her life...probably it happened only with me.. "you are not the right guy for me are a good friend to me and best person in my life...but we are not meant for each other..."

I asked her why? she started speaking ...I do not know what made you to think about me in the way you saw me, but I always treated you like a friend, a good friend and I am sorry If me, being little close to you like all other friends created this thoughts to you...

After listening such words from the person whom you treat, they are everything to one can with stand that...and I was no exception, I just left the place with out uttering a word...

I went back to room and hugged Sam and cried. A guy rarely cries but if he does, it might be because of something big...Sam understood that and consoled me. He made me drink water and rest for some time. Later I told him everything. After listening to me patiently he told me "she just have to realize that it is love with you and not friendship Ram and I am sure that she too loves you but may be since she spends most of her time with her friends she is thinking the relationship with you also as friendship" 

I was in very confused state and was very sad with Nithya's words...I did not know how to make her realize that she loves me...I wish no guy in the world gets this phase in LOVE.I still could not come out of her thoughts and words she spoke.

How did Ram proceed next? Did he win love of his life??

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