Thursday, 26 May 2016

Part5: Improbable

Na Aloki, I dont want to look in to it just now. Put your own thoughts, never seek for other's help while you are still writing it. I assure you. I will definetley help you edit and make corrections necessary at the end, said Richard.

Aloki nodded and kept her print out back. It has become practise for her to have a 30 minutes conversation with Richard everyday before her classes begins. Classes are exciting day by day. She didn't leave as soon as her classes are done, she is spending most of the time in library.

Somehow she didn't connect to people and didn't become close friends with any one yet. She felt it strange, She is such type of human where people instantly get connected, atleast thats what she heard all these days from people around her. She only had her room mates as friends now and none in college.

She maintained document in her phone, she writes when ever she gets fresh ideas. Sometimes when she sits to write her mind goes blank. She looks for real life incidents, sometimes even a word from people can inspire her to write.

After giving so much thought she gave up. She was struggling from morning to give name to her new book. Cool down Aloki, you can do it, she said to herself. She went through theme of her book mentally and suddenly it striked  her and she started scribbling in bold letters.


Relieved with the title, she started continuing the story from Ashwin's angle.

I dared to touch Sarayu who was lying on bed, by now I am sure pillow woud be completely wet. I took some tissues and handed it to her, she winced and threw my hand away. After a while, I gathered all my courage and held her in my arms, she didn't oppose, looks like she is calming down. My sinking feeling was moving away, slowly I felt better, I tried looking in to her eyes, to my disappointment she is sleeping.

I caressed her hair, kissed her on forehead and my thoughts rushed back to happy times we had, they seemed to be meant only for us.

Ashwin, its new movie out there, when are we going? called up excited Sarayu. I played with her for a while. Can't you think of the hour? Am lot busy than you and I hung up. I know, now she would have got her lower lip out and made a cute angry face. I visualised her face and smiled. She looks more cute when she does that.

I am equally scared that she may cry. Sarayu cries, like for every goddamn thing. that is one thing which I hate in her, I keep telling her, if there is any problem we will sort out together and never ever cry, I feel like an idiot when she cries, I always end up comparing my love with her parent's love and feel low. I always want to be on top in her view.

So I ended up calling her back in 5 minutes and surprised her that tickets were already booked for night show. Sarayu smiled.

It has become habit for us to watch night shows. We prefer going in bike unless it rains. Sarayu always puts her hand in my jacket while I drive. She says its cold and I love that. For a change she always drives back home. We have a kingdom of dogs which follows us on the way back, I would be scared but she says she can manage and accelrates.

On the way to movie she speaks a lot and I would be listening and vice versa happens. We majorly discuss reviews we had read about the movie and how we actually felt after watching the movie. I noticed, sometimes if movie is so bad that it gave us headache, Sarayu projects the story from her view and how she would have written it if she was the script writer. I suggest some other changes and we feel satisfied with our versions and laugh.

I remember n number of happy times we had. Now I see her silently lying in my lap like a kid. Unaware of everything.

Sarayu have the habbit of waking up late and I have habit of sleeping early. One day it so happened, she was in deep sleep and I was staring at her adorably. She just opened her eyes as if she knew that I was looking, she smiled and asked me why was I staring at her, I made a face and said my wife my wish. She laughed and hugged me. That day we slept hours together peacefully. I wish those days will be back soon.

Dreaming about future I drifted to sleep resting my back to the bed.

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Monday, 16 May 2016

Part4: Origin

Let your dreams take shape
Give wings to your thougths

Let them the the the lovable world

I tell her these words and she threw up an puzzled expression. I know she would one day understand what I mean. I am married to her from 6 months, everything seems new, everything seems interesting, everything seems crazy, first 4 months flew like anything, we had innumerous happy moments. 

I dont know what's hurting her from past 2 months, she is behaving strange. She does not speak to me much, she rarely even look at me. Trying all means and ways, I failed to understand what's there in her brain. Worst part is she behaves as normal as evryday when there is someone's presence in my home. 

Slowly we are drifting apart, this barrier is bad, like it really sucks. Having her in my life was precious gift ever. I can understand she still cares. Not sure what has happened to her LOVE for me. People say men are rock and they never show feelings, it is true to certain extent, we generally don't show feelings but when it reaches peaks, its hard to hide. I decided to share....with my cousin Rajan.

Hey Rajan can you come down to our spot in 15 mins, I messaged him. Rajan rarely says no. As he replied, he was there on time. Its a hill view restaraunt we genrally go and drink. Hey Ashwin, Rajan greeted me. We ordered 2 chilled beers and settled down. He caught that I was sad within few minutes. 

What's wrong with you bro? asked Rajan. I threw up a smile which pretty much shows up it was forced.  Stop giving stupid smiles and tell me the matter demanded Mr. Rajan. I let out a deep sigh and explained him the situation. He understood that situation was worse than he expected and thought for a while.

Give her some more time and try to convince her, pamper her man, women always like to be pampered. She do expects your presence in her life, you are generally an workaholic ashole, take break and stay with her.

That sounded better to me aswell, next morning I called up my manager, applied one week leave, nothing mattered to me than Sarayu at this moment, I even planned a surprise tickets and gift wrapped them and placed in her cupboard. I peeped in to her room to secretly see her getting surprised, but what she did turned out to be a big shock to me. She tore the tickets angrily and put them in dustbin. That was hard to digest for me. 

I sneaked in to her romm and shouted at her, whats wrong with you Sarayu, have you gone mad??
She didn't even care to respond. She fell on the bed and slept crying. I cursed myself for scolding her, I should not have lost temper. This is not the way to manage, I should find proper solution and bring peace back to my life.

Aloki struggled with her thoughts, she is still in very starting phase of writing a full fledged book, she wondered how authors write such good content maintatining consistency through out the book. She mentally made note to show her starting pages to Richard and seek for corrections, she even thought of explaining the gist of her story to him.

Go Green....Save Trees:)

Thursday, 5 May 2016

Part 3: GOAL

Some how she is liking this, more than anything in the world, the college, the library, books and especially so many achieved personalities moving just before her like any other normal human beings. She was more eager to go to college, that sounds rare though.

The fight with metro appeared better today, since she had one precious day of experience. She directly went to libray since she had 20 mins for her first class to begin. She searched for the librarian to share her thoughts about yesterday and atleast gain 0.0001 th percentage of his knowledge. Looking all over the library for him, Aloki tucked her way back disappointed, there, he appeared at the entrance, Good Morning young lady. Looks like you are punctual exclaimed the old man. 

Aloki's eyes lit up at the sight of him and wished him Good morning with a warm smile. Sir, may I know your name? asked Aloki in polite way. You can call me Richard, I don't like being called as Sir. Since Aloki had handfull of experience calling her team mates by name inspite of their age she didn't see any problem calling him by name. 

She nodded as courtesy. Well, where you looking for me Aloki? Dont get surprised again, I overheard your name too yesterday and he smiled. Aloki laughed alog with him and she explained each and every bit of what she analysed about the stages and how amazing she felt about it later. 

That's the power of books Aloki, they do not let you sleep, they make you retless until you find your answers. But once you have the knowledge, they get the heaven out of you. That pleasure can only be experienced. I am glad you are one of them. Aloki felt blessed.

I think it is time for your class. Good luck for your first class greeted the old man. Aloki nodded and rushed to her class.

Aloki took the middle row which was vacant next ot Adithi. Adhithi waved at her. During the whole day at college she met bunch of new people, it sounded strange when she thought these people whom she never met before would be part of her life from today.

It's her Professor  Hrithika's words which still sounded in her thoughts, They boosted her, they pushed her , they routed her entirely to a goal. It felt like Hrithika digged out a deep secret which was hidden in Aloki from ages. She used her profesor's golden words as starting lines to her BOOK, the wish she held for so long, the wish that's turning out to be true.  

                  Let your dreams take shape
                  Give wings to your thougths
                  Let them the the the lovable world

Harika Bojanala

Go Green...Save trees:)